2.14.2004
the economy of friendship...
i don't know if i will ever completely understand the economy of friendship. by what price is a friendship paid for, and by what price is it held onto? i don't know. merely questions, with no good answers. all i know is that i have experienced many friendships in my life, both good and bad. but, i have never experienced one on the level of one of the one's i am in now... it seems that nothing could destroy it, and that it is a friendship of the truest form. i don't know what else to say. you know who you are, and i thank God for our friendship. thanks for everything... i don't know what time God has given us to be friends, or in what contexts, but i do know that i am grateful for whatever he gives us, and let's make the most of all the time we have! lol... happy valentine's day, to one and all...
i don't know if i will ever completely understand the economy of friendship. by what price is a friendship paid for, and by what price is it held onto? i don't know. merely questions, with no good answers. all i know is that i have experienced many friendships in my life, both good and bad. but, i have never experienced one on the level of one of the one's i am in now... it seems that nothing could destroy it, and that it is a friendship of the truest form. i don't know what else to say. you know who you are, and i thank God for our friendship. thanks for everything... i don't know what time God has given us to be friends, or in what contexts, but i do know that i am grateful for whatever he gives us, and let's make the most of all the time we have! lol... happy valentine's day, to one and all...
2.11.2004
so, i just got back from a job interview. it went well, and i will most likely be getting a second interview, so we'll see what happens there. other than that? my mission for the day is to get lots of school done, and get my room cleaned all the way. been trying to accomplish that for some time now, and so today is the day of finishing! :P
2.10.2004
talked to some friends tonight, that was good. i don't like it when i am not around people (i.e., staying at home, unemployed). i am a people person, i realize this more all the time... random observation of the evening.
today...
today has been a bit of a blah day. just have felt a bit under the weather, so i didn't get much school done. i am kinda tired, and feeling like i am fighting something, so that is no fun, but? at least i don't have to be working! so? hopefully i'll feel a bit better tomorrow. other than that? it is snowly outside, so i will prolly just chill and watch a movie.
today has been a bit of a blah day. just have felt a bit under the weather, so i didn't get much school done. i am kinda tired, and feeling like i am fighting something, so that is no fun, but? at least i don't have to be working! so? hopefully i'll feel a bit better tomorrow. other than that? it is snowly outside, so i will prolly just chill and watch a movie.
2.09.2004
learning...
life is full of learning. right now i am working on my school work, which is going fairly well this morning. so, that is encouraging. but, more that that, God has been teaching me a lot these last few days. like how it is so easy to get sidetracked and pulled into all kinds of things that can be important, but not nearly as important as spending time with him. and how easy it is to dream up grand schemes to try and get things done in him and for him, when in reality, i just need to keep it simple. so? lots of little things that i just need to grab ahold of and remember, ya know? life will alaways be about learning, i am thinking... and that is okay with me.
life is full of learning. right now i am working on my school work, which is going fairly well this morning. so, that is encouraging. but, more that that, God has been teaching me a lot these last few days. like how it is so easy to get sidetracked and pulled into all kinds of things that can be important, but not nearly as important as spending time with him. and how easy it is to dream up grand schemes to try and get things done in him and for him, when in reality, i just need to keep it simple. so? lots of little things that i just need to grab ahold of and remember, ya know? life will alaways be about learning, i am thinking... and that is okay with me.
2.08.2004
Earth is crammed with heaven
and every common bush afire with God;
but only he who sees takes off his shoes.
The rest sit around it and
pluck blackberries.
-Elizabeth Barrett Browning-
and every common bush afire with God;
but only he who sees takes off his shoes.
The rest sit around it and
pluck blackberries.
-Elizabeth Barrett Browning-
honesty is the best policy...
so, to be perfectly honest, today has been a weird day. i went to church, and then spent most fo the day avoiding going home, for some reason that i can't even tell you, b/c i don't know what it is. and now i am home again. so? i don't know what happened since this morning. i thinki just need to put my nose in the Good Book, and that will help. a little quiet time to myself is always a good thing. so, i think that is what i will be doing now...
so, to be perfectly honest, today has been a weird day. i went to church, and then spent most fo the day avoiding going home, for some reason that i can't even tell you, b/c i don't know what it is. and now i am home again. so? i don't know what happened since this morning. i thinki just need to put my nose in the Good Book, and that will help. a little quiet time to myself is always a good thing. so, i think that is what i will be doing now...
this morning...
well, i have a little while before i have to leave for church, so i thought that i would post a little something. i had a post going yesterday that i lost (grrr...) but? so, here is a different one. life has been interesting the last week or so. it has been a battle to keep up a good attitude in my relationship with God, but he has proven faithful, as always, and i can say with full honesty that i think that is now behind me. God is teeaching me things about himself and about me, things that i don't think i would know if it weren't for the way things have gone. i know he has a purpose for everything.... sometimes it is so very hard to try and understand, though. sometimes i just don't understand at all, and have to rely on my faith in him, and the trust that i have in him that God is good, and cannot be otherwise. i know he has a plan for my life, and i know that he will do only what is best for me. sometimes that doesn't seem like the best idea to me, but he knows the whole story; i do not. so, i know that whatever may come, he will be in charge. as hard as it is for me sometimes to let him truly lead my life, i know it is the best thing. and i think that is all i have to say for this morning. God is so gracious, it is astounding!
well, i have a little while before i have to leave for church, so i thought that i would post a little something. i had a post going yesterday that i lost (grrr...) but? so, here is a different one. life has been interesting the last week or so. it has been a battle to keep up a good attitude in my relationship with God, but he has proven faithful, as always, and i can say with full honesty that i think that is now behind me. God is teeaching me things about himself and about me, things that i don't think i would know if it weren't for the way things have gone. i know he has a purpose for everything.... sometimes it is so very hard to try and understand, though. sometimes i just don't understand at all, and have to rely on my faith in him, and the trust that i have in him that God is good, and cannot be otherwise. i know he has a plan for my life, and i know that he will do only what is best for me. sometimes that doesn't seem like the best idea to me, but he knows the whole story; i do not. so, i know that whatever may come, he will be in charge. as hard as it is for me sometimes to let him truly lead my life, i know it is the best thing. and i think that is all i have to say for this morning. God is so gracious, it is astounding!
