unhindered and (seemingly) illogical

your powers are useless on me... i'm wearing tin foil underwear!!!
-maverick-

writing can be amazing or amazingly dangerous... if what you write is inspiring or (perhaps) inspired of some sort, then you can be forever lauded for you skills with words. if, however, you fall somewhat short of this mark, (this is where i would rank), then you end up doing nothing other than creating a permanent record of your idiocy... Hmm... i'll take my chances...
-maverick-

when someone says something to you, and then when you ask what they mean, they replay with "nothing", it is most assuredly a sign that in fact that they do not mean "nothing", and not even just "something". i would argue that in this context an answer of "nothing" is usually an allusion to something wich is much more than nothing. "nothing" = "something that you want to know but that i won't or shouldn't tell you". yeah.
-maverick-

so, i feel that i should add something to this tonight, but i am not quite sure yet what that may be. i suppose i could inform you of what i did tonight... i cleaned my room, well, i am still working on it, but its almost done. other than that, nothing too exciting went on today... just some homework, picked up a friend at the airport, and so on and so forth. and now that you are asleep i think i will leave you to sleep in peace...
-maverick-

that said, i think maybe someday soon i will start on my book...
-maverick-

so i am tired and should be in bed but i don't think i could sleep just yet. there is so much i want to be doing right now and so much of what i am doing right now i don't want to be doing. some kinda sick paradox. however, i know that God has a purpose in it, even if i don't know what it is. i trust that i will be shown in due time what it is He is leading me to do. its just hard to stick with the here and now sometimes. its always so easy to imagine that it will better at another time, another place. i am not complaining about the here and now, i am enjoying it too. it just seems that there is always an idealogical place where i would rather be, closer to who i want to be. however, i think that i am slowly learning to just be content with exactly where i am, and simply to do my best to bring where i want to be into where i am. yes, sometimes these two places are completely irreconcilable, like the fact that i am in Sask., and i want to be in Hawaii, or London. however, idealogically, it is not all that hard to begin to assimilate where i want to be and where i am. it just takes work. and it always seems the other place will require less work of me, not be quite so demanding of myself. but i know that's not true. the only real way to get to where i truly want to be is to bring it here. and this principle applies to all areas of my life, i think. so, instead of saying i wish i could do this, or i should have done that, i think i am just going to resolve to do my best to simply try and do the things that are doable. as for those that are truly undoable (yeah, i am making words up) i think i will just be content to dream. you never know, a dream still might come true. so, maybe in the process of making my little dreams come true, somewhere along the way a couple big ones will come true as well. maybe...
-maverick-

oh, the wonders of high-speed internet!
i am definitely going to get used to this....
-maverick-