7.24.2003
well, yeah.
going to seattle tomorrow morning to visit realitves. not overly looking forward to it, but? it'll be alright, i suppose. i get to see my grandparents, which i am excited about, but? right now we are having car issues, trying to figure out what to take out there and all that noise. :P other than that?
i got another 50 cent raise today, which was unexpected, so that's cool. i now make $9/hr. may not sound like much, but? for around here it is pretty good, so? i'll take what i can get. it's more than i have made in any steady job that i've had, so it's a good thing.
other than that? life just seems really busy as of late. lots of company, etc... and still too hot. can't wait until it cools down a little! well, i guess i should go pack or do something that would be a bit more productive than this...
going to seattle tomorrow morning to visit realitves. not overly looking forward to it, but? it'll be alright, i suppose. i get to see my grandparents, which i am excited about, but? right now we are having car issues, trying to figure out what to take out there and all that noise. :P other than that?
i got another 50 cent raise today, which was unexpected, so that's cool. i now make $9/hr. may not sound like much, but? for around here it is pretty good, so? i'll take what i can get. it's more than i have made in any steady job that i've had, so it's a good thing.
other than that? life just seems really busy as of late. lots of company, etc... and still too hot. can't wait until it cools down a little! well, i guess i should go pack or do something that would be a bit more productive than this...
7.21.2003
oh yeah, almost forgot.
delirious?'s mezzamorphis cd is awesome. it's an older one, but i've fallen in love with it. you should all go buy it.
and i'm not getting paid to say that, really........
i swear!
lol...
delirious?'s mezzamorphis cd is awesome. it's an older one, but i've fallen in love with it. you should all go buy it.
and i'm not getting paid to say that, really........
i swear!
lol...
well, i guess i have a little more to say now.
it has been so hot here! the heat is just oppressing. i am trying not to complain about it, but? it is really hot.
sometimes life just seems to happening all around you, but you don't really seem to be participating in it per se. i feel like i am waiting for something... what this mythical something is, i have absolutely no idea. it just seems like i can't really live my life until.........? until what? i don't know, honestly. i just feel like i am always waiting, forever waiting. i am seriously questioning the validity of this logic (or lack there of). why am i waiting? for what? life, i do not think, will be waiting for me, so i had better live it while i have it! it feels like what i do every day cannot really be my life, that this is just passing time until the big whatever happens. but, on the contrary, i think that this is life, everyday, all the time. i need to make it what i want it to be, it will not just suddenly become what i want. what a foolish notion...! lol... so? with all that said, a lot of thinking needs to be done, perhaps, on just what it is that i want my life to be, what i want to be remembered for. seems kind of morbid to think about, but i think that is a good way to determine what is really important to us. but? it is getting late, and bed is calling my name... perhaps thinking about such weighty mattes should be put off for another day....... what's one more day in blissful ignorance? one more day of the ordinary... maybe i will do some thinking tonight, for on at least some level, i want my life to be extraordinary.
g'night.
it has been so hot here! the heat is just oppressing. i am trying not to complain about it, but? it is really hot.
sometimes life just seems to happening all around you, but you don't really seem to be participating in it per se. i feel like i am waiting for something... what this mythical something is, i have absolutely no idea. it just seems like i can't really live my life until.........? until what? i don't know, honestly. i just feel like i am always waiting, forever waiting. i am seriously questioning the validity of this logic (or lack there of). why am i waiting? for what? life, i do not think, will be waiting for me, so i had better live it while i have it! it feels like what i do every day cannot really be my life, that this is just passing time until the big whatever happens. but, on the contrary, i think that this is life, everyday, all the time. i need to make it what i want it to be, it will not just suddenly become what i want. what a foolish notion...! lol... so? with all that said, a lot of thinking needs to be done, perhaps, on just what it is that i want my life to be, what i want to be remembered for. seems kind of morbid to think about, but i think that is a good way to determine what is really important to us. but? it is getting late, and bed is calling my name... perhaps thinking about such weighty mattes should be put off for another day....... what's one more day in blissful ignorance? one more day of the ordinary... maybe i will do some thinking tonight, for on at least some level, i want my life to be extraordinary.
g'night.
