unhindered and (seemingly) illogical

A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

so, today has been really good so far. i got some homework done, doing some laundry... read a good chunk out my bible... it has just been a good day. hopefully it continues that way. you know, i am amazed at how good God is today. i can be such a retard sometimes, and yet He never changes. He is always right there, waiting for me to talk to Him, to lean on Him. that's one thing i am still learning slowly... how to depend on Him in everything, and not on myself at all... a lesson slowly learned, but? it's all good.
-maverick-

wow. what a beautiful, if cold, day. clear as can be, and oh so sunny... God is good!
-maverick-

i have a strange obsession with office supplies... i.e.: pens, paper, etc... i don't know why. i just do. i know i am weird, but what can i say? we'll call it unique.
-maverick-

even my beloved typewriter can't relieve my boredom tonight...
grrr...
-maverick-

i seem to be addicted to this thing lately... i don't know why. maybe i just don't have anything else to do. that's at least part of it. and i just don't want to do homework, so this is a nice alternative.
-maverick-

Close my eyes not to remember
Every crime or time I fell
Into the open arms of temptation
Driving the nails
How does Your love remain so faithful
To one unfaithful

Where do You hide the tears
You should be crying when
I've fallen again and
Where do You hide the ears
That fell in the day I turned You away
You throw them away the sea of forgetfulness

Draw my heart out of the darkness
Where I was hiding from Your face
Into the open arms of forgiveness
Offering grace

Into the place where there's no memory
Left to press against me

Stumble or fall, You cover them all
Nothing to hold, You let them go
Love takes me in and covers with in
To welcome the child You know I am

Sea Of Forgetfulness
-Seven Day Jesus-

gym time = rubber arms
-maverick-

yeah, i'm a bum... i didn't get up until noon... oh well. nothing wonderful in the forcast for today. some time in the library, maybe watch a movie in the lounge, more reading... that's about it. but, i have a feeling its going to be a good day. or at least, better than yesterday. so, that is good in and of itself... i haven't really written any of my larger "philosophical" type posts lately... maybe my mind has been too busy w/ school. or not. i don't know. i just feel like rambling a little today, so you'll have to excuse the nonsense, but? do you ever just sit back and wonder what something might be like if...? if what, you ask? well, that's just it, the posibilities are endless. i know i just lie there in my bed some nights, and wonder how one little decision anywhere along the would have affected where i am now. nothing too profitable from doing this, but i do it nonetheless. sometimes i learn stuff from it, but mostly i just sit and wonder... am the only one who does this? i suspect not, but? anyhow... i have proceded to put forth a good bit of nonsense now, so i shall give you respite from reading any more... hope y'all, whoever you may be, have a great day!
-maverick-

"Somebody get this freaking duck away from me!!!"
-Strong Bad-

i have been commiting the cardinal computer sin: eating at my desk. this has got to stop.
or not.
-maverick-

note to self: blog surfing can comsume a large amount of time and also be somewhat addicting...
-maverick-

so, i think that i like this new template better... it's kinda a lot of blue, but i like blue better than green anyhow, so? it will do for now...
-maverick-

i was just walking back to my room a minute ago, underneath the clearest sky i have seen in a while... it was so beautiful! i don't know how you can deny God with work like this so everpresent. there is just something about the sky that i have fallen in love with. it always takes my breath away. from a sunset, to the raging storm, to the majestic silence of the stars, i just love the sky...
-maverick-

so, i got tired of all that green...
-maverick-

so, here i am again.

the rustling of the wind in the trees,
the sound of it moving past my ears...
the stiring creates a stiring in me,
a restlessness, a longing...
a want to be somewhere new,
somewhere that i've never been...
i want to be like the wind,
on a wistful journey to where ever i please...

so, yeah... just a little something that came to be while i was sitting at my desk, looking out the window. funny how that goes sometimes...
-maverick-

the preceding post, and the lyrics that it contain, say so very much... one of my favorite songs all time. i don't know if i know exactly what it says, but i know there is a lot there... and i know i understand some of it.
-maverick-

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell’em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell’em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell’em your name

Name
-Goo Goo Dolls-

on my knees,
you find me here
you lift my head,
and give me peace
-maverick-

there is nothing more inspiring to me than the bright yellow paper of a legal pad... blank pages, nice neat little blue lines... its very being causes words to want to flow from my pen... it is almost on par with a blank piece of paper in my typewriter, just waiting for me to make my impressions upon it... i love the smell of ink and paper. the musty smell of my typewriter... yeah. i know i am weird. get over it. *grin*
-maverick-

"...the LORD is with you when you are with Him. And if you seek Him, He will let you find Him; but if you forsake Him, He will forsake you." (2 Chronicles 15:2b)

If I seek Him, He will let me find Him. That's an awesome promise!!! However, the flip side of that is pretty freaky... I think I will do well to stay as far away from there as possible, not matter what I FEEL like... Yeah.
-maverick-

sleep evades me...
for further clarification on my feelings on this, please refer back to the post dealing with "the unalienable right to nap".
-maverick-

I think today has been much better. Yesterday too. My perspective on life, (graciously adjusted from above), seems to be a little more normal. I don't think I am quite so afraid of the future as I have been... God can be trusted.

Anyhow... Life is good. No reason in particular... Lots of little reasons... But, today, my mood says that life is good. And I know it's true...
-maverick-

"Nor should it be considered rash to be dissatisfied with opinions which are almost universally accepted..."
-Galileo-