4.12.2003
hmm... nothing too exciting going on... let myself have a bit of a break last night, ended up going mini-golfing... lol! it was amusing, to say the least. have spent most of the day today just kicking it outside, studying in the sunshine. that's about the majority of my day. oh, and a slurpee run this afternoon... lol... other than that? just trying to gets of studying done for my finals. yeah...
as of tomorrow morning, it is only a week until i go home... yikes! it seems so close, and yet so far away... it is going to come entirely to quickly, i know that, and yet because of all the stuff to be done between then and now, it seems quite far away yet. how decieving my brain can be! lol... before i know it i will be packing up my meager possesions and be making the journey homeward. but, is it really home anymore? i don't know, honestly. in so many ways, this has become home. the only thing that really makes home 'home' anymore is that my parents still live there. if they moved to somewhere else, i don't know where i would go for the summer. this place has become familiar, and it feels home-like. i think i might actually miss the prairies a little this summer. not a lot mind you... :) they will never compare to my mountains, but? i might miss them a little. but? it will be a good summer, no matter what happens, i think. that's the attitude i will go into it with, anyhow. it's not like i don't want to go home, but...? i can't really seem to express it. i mean, i don't even have a place to sleep yet in my parent's house! doesn't make it feel much like home anymore. but... it will be good to spend the summer in the mountains, and with my family, i think. i am going to miss my youth kids, too... wish i could be up here for them over the summer, but? it is in God's hands, and He has a bigger plan, and He can help them more than i can certainly. so? yeah.... :) time to go study... 5 more days, and i am done with this semester for good!
as of tomorrow morning, it is only a week until i go home... yikes! it seems so close, and yet so far away... it is going to come entirely to quickly, i know that, and yet because of all the stuff to be done between then and now, it seems quite far away yet. how decieving my brain can be! lol... before i know it i will be packing up my meager possesions and be making the journey homeward. but, is it really home anymore? i don't know, honestly. in so many ways, this has become home. the only thing that really makes home 'home' anymore is that my parents still live there. if they moved to somewhere else, i don't know where i would go for the summer. this place has become familiar, and it feels home-like. i think i might actually miss the prairies a little this summer. not a lot mind you... :) they will never compare to my mountains, but? i might miss them a little. but? it will be a good summer, no matter what happens, i think. that's the attitude i will go into it with, anyhow. it's not like i don't want to go home, but...? i can't really seem to express it. i mean, i don't even have a place to sleep yet in my parent's house! doesn't make it feel much like home anymore. but... it will be good to spend the summer in the mountains, and with my family, i think. i am going to miss my youth kids, too... wish i could be up here for them over the summer, but? it is in God's hands, and He has a bigger plan, and He can help them more than i can certainly. so? yeah.... :) time to go study... 5 more days, and i am done with this semester for good!
4.11.2003
all my papers are done!!!!
yes!!
there's a bonfire going on outside, so finals or not, i am going to take the rest of the afternoon off and go hang out. yeah.
yes!!
there's a bonfire going on outside, so finals or not, i am going to take the rest of the afternoon off and go hang out. yeah.
4.10.2003
oh, Lord, i am so forgetful...
please help me to remember the things you teach me, the simplest of truths in your Word... please help me to remain faithful to You and your Word. thank you for loving me... and constantly reminding me... thank you that i need not rely on anything but You. i cannot do anything on my own, and i find some comfort in that God... You are bigger than the things in my life that get me stuck sometimes, You are bigger than the things around me that distract me from You... You are bigger than the things i can't control at all... You have all things in your hands, and guide them by Your wisdom, Your love, and Your justice. and i am in Your hands... please teach me to be content there, and to not stray from the safety that You promise for me there. thank you for your salvation... teach me to find my worth in You alone, and not in any other. teach me to love like You love Jesus, let me shine like the noonday sun with the radiance of who You are and the love that You eminate. help me be a reflection of You to those who may never see You... most of all, Lord, please help me to remember...
Thank You for letting me be reminded...
please help me to remember the things you teach me, the simplest of truths in your Word... please help me to remain faithful to You and your Word. thank you for loving me... and constantly reminding me... thank you that i need not rely on anything but You. i cannot do anything on my own, and i find some comfort in that God... You are bigger than the things in my life that get me stuck sometimes, You are bigger than the things around me that distract me from You... You are bigger than the things i can't control at all... You have all things in your hands, and guide them by Your wisdom, Your love, and Your justice. and i am in Your hands... please teach me to be content there, and to not stray from the safety that You promise for me there. thank you for your salvation... teach me to find my worth in You alone, and not in any other. teach me to love like You love Jesus, let me shine like the noonday sun with the radiance of who You are and the love that You eminate. help me be a reflection of You to those who may never see You... most of all, Lord, please help me to remember...
Thank You for letting me be reminded...
yeah... on more class, one more paper, and i am done with school for this semester! yeah! i am loving this spring weather... things are going pretty good today, i think... all my classes have been getting out early, so that is nice too.... :) one week from today, i will be done with everything...! hmm... i am excited to be done, but it is all kinda scary too... but? it will all be good, no matter what, b/c God is good, and He loves me. so, i get ready to enter my summer with a little intrepidation, but mostly with humble confidence, not in myself, but in the power of my God to pull me through any situation that i might encounter.
4.09.2003
the northern lights were absolutely amazing tonight... the brightest i have ever seen them. dancing all over they sky in different colors... it was awesome... how can anyone see things like that and not believe in God? i don't know.
anyhow... i am pretty tired, so i think i will just go to bed. yeah...
anyhow... i am pretty tired, so i think i will just go to bed. yeah...
i cannot beleive how nice it is outside!!! it's 70!! (or 21 for all those elsewhere) yeah, it's beautiful! man... thank you God for a sunny day!
yeah, things are going pretty good so far today, too... got my classes nailed down good for next semester, so that is good. also got an extension on my last assignment, so that my stress level has been reduced greatly. phew... yeah, it's good... and i am drinking an american mt. dew... lol... :)
4.08.2003
today seems to have gone fairly well, overall. although i have been fairly scatter brained all day, okay, all week, things have been getting done. got my one of my exams moved so i can get home a bit sooner. got my ride figured out to get home (always a good thing!). and i think i even have some good things figured out for next school year, so? things seem to be going pretty well... but? i am a bit of a skeptic sometimes... and i am just waiting for something to go, and for it all to fall apart... lol... but? i don't think it will. so? has just been a pretty good day, production speaking anyhow. still have more i need to get done, need to get going on the reading for my english paper which is due thursday... i am tired of reading. oh yeah, all my finals are now taking place over the course of 3 days. 6 finals, 3 days. 2 each day. the only day that might be brutal is the day where i have both of my history finals. other than that? shouldn't be too bad, actually. well... i should be off... back to the grind...
hallelujah! only one more paper left to write this semester... now if i can only figure out what in the world i am going to write about.... hmm...
i woke up after not nearly enough sleep, but somehow managed to wake up feeling pretty good. it is an absolutely beautiful morning, and that certainly brightens my outlook for the day. the sun is shining, the wind is quiet, the snow is melting, and it looks to be a pretty good day...
4.07.2003
it's late, i'm exhausted, and i don't care if my paper isn't finished. i'll finish it in the morning. g'night!
i think my brain has reached critical mass...
hmm...
i think i'll go for a walk and try and get some fresh air... maybe that will delay the implosion of my brain... lol... knowing that i only have to make it 3 more days is what is keeping me going right now... i will make it, brain or no brain... lol...
hmm...
i think i'll go for a walk and try and get some fresh air... maybe that will delay the implosion of my brain... lol... knowing that i only have to make it 3 more days is what is keeping me going right now... i will make it, brain or no brain... lol...
almost done w/ another paper, so that is good... especially since it's due in like 2 hours... lol... anyhow. had a good day yesterday. got to go for a bit of a road trip, just hang out. it was nice. encountered some things that really made me think yesterday a lot about what i believe and such. didn't cause me to question, so much as how to make it real to other people. but? no wonderful answers yet... anyhow, back to the grind...
