unhindered and (seemingly) illogical

well, i posted something new in my other blog, for the first time in about a month. i don't claim that it is any good, but if you want to read, it?

went for a walk, it was quite enjoyable. thinking about going garage saleing in the a.m., but? none of them sounded too exciting. if i wake up early, i may go anyhow, just for fun. its like treasure huntimg, kinda... :) i am just surfing the web now, relishing in the fact that it is friday night, and i am sitting at home... lol... :) i feel like writing something. maybe i will post something in my other blog tonight... haven't done that in a while. hmm... we'll see what happens...

hmm... today was.... long. it wasn't bad, it wasn't good, it just seemed to go on and on and on... work was long........ i spent the whole day sanding doors and window frames, and then staining them. yeah. i don't want to sound like i am complaining, b/c i am not, really... just observing that it was a long day. and i am glad that i am done. well, i am working a bit tomorrow, but that is on the side, and i get paid a little more...! so? i spent all evening attempting to work on my truck, but spent most of the time running around replacing broken tools, etc... so? a rather unproductive night in that respect, but? i think i will have the tranny out by tomorrow, if all goes well. but?

on another note, i am wondering if this journal or whatever you want to call it is worth keeping. it seemes to me to be rather mundane. it started out as something more than what is has become, i believe. hmm... i don't want to be adding to the mundaneness (yes, i think i just made that word up) of the world. the world is extraordinary, if you look in the right places. and these places are not far off or visionary, they are most often right beneath our noses. sometimes the only thing it takes to see these extraordinary sights is a simple change of attitude. the world is surely not a mundane or ordinary place, and yet i think that is what i may convey through this blog sometimes. maybe i can change that, and turn this into something that reflects more acurately what i beleive about the world... but? you will still get some of me just ranting about my life, no worries about that! lol... time to go get all this grease off me.... (again)

yeah, so i spent most of the day staining oak trim... yeah, that was a blast. then i came home and spen almost 4 hours working on my truck, which resulted in my getting covered in grease. so? i have gotten farther than i thought i would, so that is good. other than that? i am currently watching About A Boy. i went to rent a movie, and it called my name, so?

oh, and just as a random side note, i parted my hair down the middle after my shower tonight, just becasue i could... lol!

how is it that good friends can be so gracious in the face of utter foolishness?
i don't know, but it means that they are the best kind of friend, and definitely worth keeping.

hmm... so my manual labor is catching up to me. i am kinda sort today. i feel like a wuss saying that, but it is the truth. oh, well... its gonna pay the bills. :) nothing much else exciting... i went to youth group tonight, was weird b/c other than all the adults, i was definitely the oldest one there... leaves me standed somewhere between actually being a youht, and actually being an adult. when i figure out exactly what that means, i'll get back to you. lol... but? God is awesome, i can tell you that much. other than that, i don't know alot... (this you've probably firgured out by now... lol!) so? i think i am going to work on my distance learning class for a while now, as i have nothing better to do, and it certainly needs to get done!

well... first day of real work of any kind in over 7 months, so that was interesting. felt good to do some manual labor for once, instead of just working my brain. not that working my brain is a bad thing, but it is good to work muscles, too. lol... other than that, pretty quiet day. just kicking it now... watched a movie with my litttle brother, so that was cool. now...? i am maybe going to go for a walk in a bit, then maybe wriote or something... i am feeling creative, but don't know just how to outlet it just yet. we'll see... we will see... i may just end up crashing... i was up early this morning, and could end up being up even earlier tomorrow. so? an early bedtime would not hurt me any, that's for sure. starting to feel a little bit more settled in here, which is a good thing. not quite so out of place and all. so? anyhow... time for me to move along to something else... like my walk or something... lol!

hmm... not too much exciting going on today. just kicking it mostly, not doing too much. maybe have a job lined up doing drywall with my uncle, so that is a positive thing. i am supposed to go help him tomorrow, so i'll talk to him more then about it, and see where that leads to. other than that? spent the day trying to accomplish stuff, not getting nearly as far as i would like. but? some is better than none. i need to dig out some room in my bro's room for me to sleep, and that will be the extent of my dwelling place for the summer, i beleive. it will work, i think. it's still early, so i think i am going to go for a walk, and then head over to the wonderful wal-mart and do a little cheap clothes shopping. i need clothes, and they (hopefully) have something decent, at least for t-shirts and maybe some shorts. that'd be good. i feel the need to write something, so maybe i will do that a little later... hmm... anyhow, off to go tackle the room for a bit, and then a walk to clear my brain, and some good 'ole late night wally world shopping action. yeah, such is my exciting life... lol!

so... got all packed, my brother and his buddy came and got me, and then we spent the night in the city having a concert in the living room of the girl next door... it was much fun. lol.... :) long drive to get home, now i am here, i don't know what to think just yet. we'll see how the week transpires. everyone seemes to have some ideas of what i should be doing for them this summer, and its just making me want to run and hide. i am not one to shirk responsiblity, but? when i am barely through the door and get bombarded with things that i am appearantly going to do this summer, its a little hard to not want to turn tail and go straight back to canada, where i would rather be anyhow, with all my friends. but? it will be good... its nice to see my mountains again! :) but? we shall see what the week will bring. i am going to remain optomistic, so...? i am not worried about it or anything, it is just an adjustment... and i want to use my time wisely this summer, and be involved, but i am feeling burnt out from school, and part of me just wants a break. i have a tendacy to sometimes say no when i should say yes and say yes when i should say no.... depending on my mood... :) so? i'll give myself the week to chill out, and i'll see what i think then, i think..... lol! anyhow, enough of me rambling... i am sure the few of you who read this have heard quite enough of me today...