unhindered and (seemingly) illogical

new way to fly...

so, from now on, i will be posting my blog here. i will leave this site up for access to the archives. this site served me faithfully for the last year, but it was time to move on... thanks for reading y'all!

i think...

i think that my last post may have sounded a little... depressing. lol... well, that was a crappy day, and i did feel all those things, so i am not going to take it back. however, to balance things out a little, i think that a post that is a bit on the brighter side will do nicely. now, i am not just writing this post for the sake of writing something that's all smiles. everything i write on here is what i think, for real. as scary as that may be sometimes! lol... but honestly, things have been going a lot better in the last week. God has been faithful to me, as he always is. i believe that he has begun to show me some things that i can work on to be more like him... which is a good thing! one thing that seems to keep coming up over and over again, when talking to all manner of people, is the subject of discipleship. i think that it is something that is vital to the church today, and yet at least around here, hardly practiced! (i can include myself in that statement...) i think that it is important for every believer to be discipled, as well as be discipling. and it is not just my opinion, but that of the Bible. the great commission calls for us to go and make DISCIPLES. if you look at Jesus' ministry, it was one of discipleship. so, that is something that has been on my mind and heart, and something that i intend to pursue, and see where God leads with it, and what he decides to do with it.

well, kinda got off on a tangent there, little mini sermon, lol... but, no apologies here. that is what is on my heart, so that is what you get. :) in other news... lol... i have the day off of work today, so that is kinda nice. i hope to get some things done that are of some value. (e.g., NOT sleeping... lol) oh, and on a parting note... if you ever build anything out of cedar wood, make sure it is COMPLETELY dried out before you do anything with it, b/c other wise it will shrink. a lot. yeah, not cool... now my bookshelf looks retarded... lol, such is life! goodbye all...

speaking too soon...

why does it seem that as soon as i open my mouth to say that i am falling in love with God again, that i no more than seemingly run away? this bewilders me as much as it will you, i think. i do not understand myself somedays. correction; most days. i do not know what the solution is; i only know the problems. surely someone knows the solution for elusive mediocrity... i think... i hope? i another note, some days i seem bound to drown myself in blatant commonality. i do not wish to live an everyday life, i want to live a life of more... i don't want to get through the day for the sake of getting through the day; i want to have a passion that drives me every waking moment. thus far, i have not let anything affect me that way. this little box that i've built around me for protection has turned into a cage, and i want out of it. no more living in a box, i want to live in the freedom that Christ gave to me! i just pray that he gives me the courage and the strength to do it. to God be the Glory!

falling again...

before you let your mind get too carried away with the implications of my title... let me explain. tis true, i am falling in love again. however, not in a way that you are prolly thinking. i am falling more in love everyday with my Lord and Saviour. it is something that is really begining to be real in my life, and something that is really starting to take root more and more. it has been a slow process, and it is starting to feel like it is really taking off... which excites me. i am excited about my faith! and that is exciting, lol! but? yeah... so, i am going back to my first love... to God be the Glory!

the economy of friendship...

i don't know if i will ever completely understand the economy of friendship. by what price is a friendship paid for, and by what price is it held onto? i don't know. merely questions, with no good answers. all i know is that i have experienced many friendships in my life, both good and bad. but, i have never experienced one on the level of one of the one's i am in now... it seems that nothing could destroy it, and that it is a friendship of the truest form. i don't know what else to say. you know who you are, and i thank God for our friendship. thanks for everything... i don't know what time God has given us to be friends, or in what contexts, but i do know that i am grateful for whatever he gives us, and let's make the most of all the time we have! lol... happy valentine's day, to one and all...

so, i just got back from a job interview. it went well, and i will most likely be getting a second interview, so we'll see what happens there. other than that? my mission for the day is to get lots of school done, and get my room cleaned all the way. been trying to accomplish that for some time now, and so today is the day of finishing! :P

talked to some friends tonight, that was good. i don't like it when i am not around people (i.e., staying at home, unemployed). i am a people person, i realize this more all the time... random observation of the evening.

today...

today has been a bit of a blah day. just have felt a bit under the weather, so i didn't get much school done. i am kinda tired, and feeling like i am fighting something, so that is no fun, but? at least i don't have to be working! so? hopefully i'll feel a bit better tomorrow. other than that? it is snowly outside, so i will prolly just chill and watch a movie.

learning...

life is full of learning. right now i am working on my school work, which is going fairly well this morning. so, that is encouraging. but, more that that, God has been teaching me a lot these last few days. like how it is so easy to get sidetracked and pulled into all kinds of things that can be important, but not nearly as important as spending time with him. and how easy it is to dream up grand schemes to try and get things done in him and for him, when in reality, i just need to keep it simple. so? lots of little things that i just need to grab ahold of and remember, ya know? life will alaways be about learning, i am thinking... and that is okay with me.

Earth is crammed with heaven
and every common bush afire with God;
but only he who sees takes off his shoes.
The rest sit around it and
pluck blackberries.

-Elizabeth Barrett Browning-

living...

there is always another tomorrow; there is never another today.

honesty is the best policy...

so, to be perfectly honest, today has been a weird day. i went to church, and then spent most fo the day avoiding going home, for some reason that i can't even tell you, b/c i don't know what it is. and now i am home again. so? i don't know what happened since this morning. i thinki just need to put my nose in the Good Book, and that will help. a little quiet time to myself is always a good thing. so, i think that is what i will be doing now...

this morning...

well, i have a little while before i have to leave for church, so i thought that i would post a little something. i had a post going yesterday that i lost (grrr...) but? so, here is a different one. life has been interesting the last week or so. it has been a battle to keep up a good attitude in my relationship with God, but he has proven faithful, as always, and i can say with full honesty that i think that is now behind me. God is teeaching me things about himself and about me, things that i don't think i would know if it weren't for the way things have gone. i know he has a purpose for everything.... sometimes it is so very hard to try and understand, though. sometimes i just don't understand at all, and have to rely on my faith in him, and the trust that i have in him that God is good, and cannot be otherwise. i know he has a plan for my life, and i know that he will do only what is best for me. sometimes that doesn't seem like the best idea to me, but he knows the whole story; i do not. so, i know that whatever may come, he will be in charge. as hard as it is for me sometimes to let him truly lead my life, i know it is the best thing. and i think that is all i have to say for this morning. God is so gracious, it is astounding!

its good to be alive.

no pain, no gain...

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